Steal a pencil for me

It's the first time I've ever felt this lonely,
I Wish someone would cure this pain
It's funny when you think it's gonna work out
Till you chose weed over me you're so lame
I thought you were cool until the point,
Up until the point you didn't call me
when you said you would
Finally figured out you're all the same,
Always coming up with some kind of story

Every time I try to make you smile,
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You can't your too tough
You think you're loveless
Is that too much that I'm askin for?

I Thought you'd come around when I ignored you,
Sorta thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe I guess you didn't take that warning,
'Cause I'm not about to look at your face again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself?
You can't see the world through a mirror
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here

I Can't find where I am, lying here alone in fear,
Afraid of the dark, no one to claim alone again

It was too much that I asked him for?